Like it is a college paper, I'm up writing this between bout's of mindless web surfing, frantic note taking and actual productivity. The most accurate cliché I have ever heard is, "you get out what you put into something." For myself, and many others, spirituality couldn't be described more concisely. Pagan traditions are modern constructs, sifted through centuries of slander, and waxed with good intentions. We don't have a book, and we have just a handful of trusted teachers. For any prospective practitioner its a daunting task to even become familiar with a tradition. There's one road to take, and for now, its your own. You'll honor the path you're on if you do your best to stay true. If you respect the past, and want it to have a future, then you will be a more critical auditor than anyone else.
Late nights, endless reading, followed by quiet repetition is how most of us get our bearings. At first its a romantic idea, but it doesn't take long to realize the magnitude of the undertaking. Don't trick yourself. You're trying to resurrect a way of life that has been on life support for more than a millennium. Remind yourself of that, and all the work will seem more worthwhile.
Keep the candle burning folks. You're doing great things. Now I've got to get back to studying. I've got a Scottish Gaelic seminar to Skype into at 6 a.m.